Cleanse Day Two – Barreling Through the Intangible Walls

Things are getting interesting. Two days into the cleanse, and I’m really starting to feel the detoxification. I’ve hit several irritation walls today – these dense, anger-laden waves that tempt me to fall deep and reach for the Doritos. I love them. The walls, and the Doritos. But mostly the walls. Unless it’s nacho-flavored. Then, [...]

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Day 1 – The Divine Cleansing

I’m on day 1 of my latest Master Cleanse. I didn’t ease into this one in the recommended / usual way – last night brought a beautiful indulgence through a spectacular meal with someone I adore. I even had meat (a rarity that happens about 2-3 times a year) – rack of lamb with kalamata [...]

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The Blog Within A Blog Within A Quest for Authenticity

I’m ready to admit that I am light years away from outsmarting my ego. I am also realizing, more and more, that this quest for authenticity is a bigger game than I could have ever realized. I know the lines I write in this public space aren’t always the absolute truth. Whatever that is. I [...]

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Porn Panic and the Wild / Wooly World of Sexuality

I’ve been meaning to relay a recent “only in Vegas” adventure that seems to demand an audience. And since I’ve been noodling the topic of sexuality in gargantuan doses lately, it’s perfect timing. A couple of weeks ago, a super-dear friend from LA – I’ll just call him the Scribe (he writes BRILLIANT dark scripts, [...]

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Tailspins

My heart has been screaming for a blog post all day. I’ve been so overloaded with emotions that I actually started feeling squeamish and faint. I skirted the edge of tears in every moment. Now, there’s no more avoidance. Looks like there will be no funeral attendance, but a massive gathering of my deceased friend’s [...]

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Mourning Sun

Sitting at the blackjack tables at Treasure Island with two of my very favorite peeps last night, a chill went through my body and a text message landed shortly thereafter. We had lost a friend. He died on Thursday night. My beautiful, vulnerable, always heart-centered angel-friend. We had an eleven year run, harking all the [...]

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Killing is Contagious

We have this saying when someone dies – it happens in threes. Bundled tragedies. Endings, stacked end to end, so similar it’s – poetic. Like all good cliches, this idea came to be because it is, in fact, a little too true. We’re in the middle of a trio of tormented, drug-addicted, famous young + [...]

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Finding the End to the LA Story

So I’m better than ever and falling apart. The move to Vegas is already blessed beyond words. The Universe has been so busy lining up these mind-blowing synchronicities and inarguable serendipitous nuggets that I rather feel like a spoiled princess. I’m receiving, believe that. From the beautiful souls that await with open arms to the [...]

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I’m Ok With This

A few days ago, I revealed a reveal – more details on the ways in which my ex, the Seeker, attempted to harm me. I keep getting more doses, from so many sources. There’s so much pain, irony, and beautiful balance associated with all of these new lights, I can’t help but feel empowered. I’ve [...]

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The Process of Dreams

I woke up this morning in a steady tear-flow, vividly recalling the bizarre yet sensical meanderings my mind and spirit took in the absence of consciousness. Boo snuggled in at my feet, looking as if he was standing guard – in protection. My little mystic shield. I dreamt about Daddy. Not about him, specifically, but [...]

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